5 years ago when Dom was born i always said that in 5 years from now Dom would be starting Kindergarten. Jonathan would be starting High School and Nathanial would be going off to college. The past 5 years have literally flown by and i wish that they would of taken longer.
This whole year has been a dread for me, not only my baby starting Kindergarten but for Nathanial to start college. Nathanial and I have always been close, more like best friends. We can still tell each other anything and not worry about being judged while in the same time he still respected me as a parent and actually listened to me. It has not always been perfect but it has been wonderful at the same time. I have been dreading this day just because its not only a mother sending her son to college but a mom losing her best friend at home. Nathanial is always there when i have to bitch about something or complain about someone. I guess i will have to learn to wait for a text or for a response to my various emails.
Drop off today was just plain weird. We set up his room, met his roomate and had lunch in the cafeteria. We were going to take N out to a nice restaurant but due to the hurricane Saranac Lake had a black out so it was back to the campus for cafeteria food which was actually pretty good. Nathanial's college is very beautiful in the Adirondacks, the perfect place for him. Saying good bye was fast but i did throw in my i love you's like 2000 times. It was hard to say good bye but it had to be done. I will see him in a month which seems like a lifetime, but he needs this more than me i think. Now as he comes home on breaks i will have to remember to treat him more like an adult but in the same time always remember him as a child, since that is what he will always be to me. These past 7 years together have been fabulous and i cant wait to see what the future holds.
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